“Why everything that's supposed to be bad make me feel so good?
Everything they told me not to is exactly what I would
Man I tried to stop man I tried the best I could
But (You make me smile)”
--Kanye West, “Addiction”
I'd say I have a bit of an obsessive personality at times — it operates in short spurts; I latch on to something for a little bit, thinking that it's the best thing ever, but my short attention span will have me move on to the next thing as soon as I get bored of it. It's probably part of the reason why I have bits and pieces of so many different kinds of projects scattered all over my office. I get so addicted to one thing at a time that I neglect all the other things that I could — or should — be looking after!
If there's one thing that can vastly change who you are, how you act and think, and the things that drive you day in and day out, it's an addiction. We throw the word "addiction" around so casually nowadays that it leaves one wondering if anyone knows what it really means. To quote from the Merriam-Webster dictionary, an addict is someone who will
"devote or surrender to something habitually or obsessively".
If we break that down further to observe the definitions for obsessions and habits...
ob·ses·sion
noun \äb-ˈse-shən, əb-\
Definition of OBSESSION
1: a persistent disturbing preoccupation with an often unreasonable idea or feeling; broadly : compelling motivation <an obsession with profits>
1hab·it
noun \ˈha-bət\
Definition of HABIT
7a : a behavior pattern acquired by frequent repetition or physiologic exposure that shows itself in regularity or increased facility of performance
7b : an acquired mode of behavior that has become nearly or completely involuntary <got up early from force of habit>
So in looking at these, what can we learn about an addiction?
- One is ruled by an addiction
- One does not act when they are addicted, instead they carry out actions as governed by their addiction
How do you battle an addiction When you simply can’t help yourself — when your actions feel less and less like they’re your own and more like an unseen force is guiding you to do things — even though you might get less and less enjoyment from them as time passes — what can you do to regain control of your life?
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